Suicidal

God, I feel so suicidal right now....I just want to slice my wrists open and bleed. I feel like I'm walking around as a nothing. I feel so empty and numb inside. I don't know what spurred these feelings, but when I was holding my dad's box cutter, I wanted to take the blade and go into the bathroom and let it cut me. I don't know if it's because I'm drinking, but I feel so cruddy right now.....